Some plans for the future

I have been thinking a lot lately about things I want to do in my house, for my kids, and me....

For my Girls; I want to get Ekko into Gymnastics, I think she would really enjoy it plus it would help her better focus her energy somewhere constructive. I want to work on getting Ekko preschool workbooks to try and work with her on her letters, numbers, and such so when she does get to start school she'll be prepared :) As for Ailynne, I just want her to be happy and healthy, we'll play the rest by ear :) I think that helping Ekko better focus her energy somewhere else will help us all out.. She has been very uncontrollable lately.. She will argue with us, yell at us, not listen to us and it's not a good thing or healthy because no matter what we do she doesn't seem to care about what we say as her parents.

As for my house, I want to get more ink for my printer so I can print out pics, buy some more frames so I can hang up more pics... I want to buy the yarn to crochet some big blankets for our sectional, I want to try and get shelving so I can put out more of my candle holders and get more decor for the house.. I want to keep fall colors on the livingroom and diningroom.. My kitchen I want to keep as our Apple/Sunflower combo :P I wat to make curtains for our livingroom cause then I know I will have the curtains I want and they'll fit our windows lol. I want to get some kind of theme for the downstairs half bath; hand towels, trash can. and such... I have so many ideas for the house it's just a matter of having the money to make most of it and get it all setup :)

As for me, I want to loose a lot of drama in my life... life is too short for it to be this way.. We should live everday to the fullest and enjoy it all, but some people seem to not care about others happiness.. After Ailynne is born and I have t he medical clear I want to get most of my old body back :) at the very least get in shape and get to 150lbs :) I know it will be hard work for a while but I can do it :) I want to have less stress in my life, I want to eat better and feel good about myself.. instead of the failure some make me out to be.. I am not perfect but damn it I am not a failure.. I am a good person and I try my hardest to d the right thing, even though I am human and can't always do the right thing.. We all make those mistakes, that's what makes us who we are :)

I try to be there for friends and family when I can, it may not be monetary wise being there for them but you don't always have to spend money on someone to know they are there for you.. You don't have to buy me things to prove you love me for who I am, just treat me and love the way I deserve :) All I ask is for you to be honest with me, not throw things in my face because you have to have everything worse/better than me. just be happy for me when it'sthe right time and be there for me when I need you.. be understanding.. don't ask for my help or advice if you don't really want it, because I am tired of the negativity and attitude :(

I am grateful for those who make life bright and happy, near and far :) and I just want love and support whether you agree with it or not, it's who I am love me or hate me but don't mistreat me cause you're an ass..

I feel big changes coming, I just hope I can follow through with them all and be the most sucessful I can be :) Please be patient with me and help me, I will need it more than you know :)